What does every one expect a micro preemie mom to be? A superhero that smiles and never sheds a tear? That they are unstoppable, strong willed people? How can they do it all. Especially with twins on oxygen and monitors and doctor appointments galore! How can those parents maintain jobs or their sanity or their mortgage? What emotional toll has wandered into their souls?
Life for me and my boyfriend has changed! Being a women, you dream of a picket fence to go with your first house, a white wedding dress to wear when you marry the one you love for 6 years. We all want that don't we? My boyfriend and I bought our first starter home about two years ago and we love our house! We decided to have a child and we ended up with micro preemie twin boys! And struggles for our new family have become of us, but as we saw our boys fight for life, we grew stronger and a family and couple! People kind of expect that their opinions are the right answer!
I learned to stick up for myself, this quiet shy person is not going to let ignorant people get in my way or control me anymore! I work full time, and come home to two special needs children that need me more than anything right now! Oh yeah I cry, I cry a lot! My boyfriend has been through so much trauma with the boys being born premature that it's affecting him in the present! I'm suppose to hold up the fort!
Superhero you may ask? No but maybe a sidekick! My twins are my superheroes! They are the true meaning of courage and all that fun superhero lingo! I'm just their sidekick helping them prosper! Am I strong? Maybe in your eyes, but I am just doing the best I can do! How do I maintain a job? Just lucky on that subject, and lastly how can I maintain my financial security? I'm not! Living on paycheck by paycheck at the moment!
I found out though, life is what you make of it! You hate your job then change it, only if it was that easy right? The battles we face make the person that you are and will or have become in this life! You are never alone in this journey even though their may be some dark times! Someone out their loves and needs you! You actually may be someone's superhero sidekick!
