time to catch up

Last time I updated my  log it was about 5 moths ago, the boys celebrated a big milestone. The big one! Noah graduated off oxygen and the boys walked in the march for babies walk! A lot has been going on! Noah and Nathan walk without help! Noah walked first and then recently Nathan has accomplished it! I couldn't be more proud! I try to include the boys in activities in the community and the boys did our annual pumpkin dash! Which was so fun and we got to visit a couple of pumpkin patches also! The boys got to do what other kids get to do! We get a lot of stairs from curious adults and children, but my boys seem to not let it bother them! They are perfect the way they are and they show a lot of people how to be happy! I love it! Honestly, it has been hard for me, to take in all the stairs not because of the boys but because of the ignorant people that come with disrespect!  Its just a pet peeve of mine! The twins will be 19 months this week couldn't be happier!

BOOO!

Last October the boys just graduated from the nicu and were on lock down. This year we are celebrating Halloween!  The boys are going to be batman and robin and I am in the process of making the bat mobile for the wagon! Halloween one of my favorite days. Today the boys made their own monsters! Noah was all into it, but Nathan did not like his hand being painted!

Noah's smile

Watching my preemies grow and get stronger everyday from day one they have always had plastic on their face , yeah I seen both of them without it but, you get accustomed to seeing them with it on everyday it's a nessesicty actually! Noah's lungs are actually stronger then Nathan's. Nathan is still on half of liter but that's okay! Noah has had many trial and error sleep studies and as of last week the lung doctor gave the okay to take him off the oxygen completely! What a big milestone to accomplish I couldn't be more proud! The oxygen was him but now without the oxygen his smile shines brighter! 

March for Babies 2014

Today was the March for Babies walk in our area and this was the first tone we were able to bring our boys! Last year while the boys were in the hospital we learned about the March of  Dimes and decided to walk for our boys! I wasn't as emotional as I thought I would be, maybe cos the stress of having the boys out in public gives me some sort of anxiety! Today was nice and the boys had fun! People watching and they were all cute in the shirts that we designed!  
It was also nice to get out as a family! When you are stuck in the house all winter afraid of those germs,  you count down the days until those germs disappear for the season!  I wanted to share some of the picture from today's walk! 

Nathey and Noah one year old

I haven't been updating this blog in awhile with moving and the boys birthday party I just had no time! The twins are now 13 months old! Can't believe it! Their birthday party was a success and I decided to let them have a taste of cake! And they loved it! They were unsure at first butt loved it! They had their own special cupcakes, it was nice and very emotional for me! My boys came so fair! Noah has just been crawling and moving around and standing so much now! Yes standing pulling himself up now and Nathan slowly but surely catches up to his brother! 

 I can't believe how fast just in two weeks that Noah has caught on to standing with one hand crawling and pulling himself up, it was just like bam something clicked for him! Nathan though is behind his brother but not by far! 

Happy Valentines Day!

Little mustache bash times 2

 Can you believe it? 12 months from last March 24/25th is almost hear! The month of March is only a month away! As you all should know by now; by my many posts on Facebook about how grateful I am to have my boys! All the pictures that I finally decided to post! To the ones that have followed my story and to those who are sick of seeing my posts about my boys and how far they came! Actually it's not all about me or you, it's about them!  We'll they are going to be a year old! They won't be doing normal one year old things, eating cake and walking. I don't even know if they will be sitting up on their own just yet, but they will be the big ONE!  

  Looking back at all these months are still scary for me to look back on! The fear in the beginning to the drawn out car rides and ignorant people just trying to understand,but at the same time just making it all worse! To still not knowing why my boys came so early, to being excited and relieved when finally coming home after five months. The journey wasn't over, just part of it, like a new chapter in our book of hope and love and family times 2! Our journey after the storm! The boys individual journeys as people and as brothers! Specialist visit, doctor appointments and oxygen equipment are what our journey has become now as we watch my children grow! 

 Woo hoo! I couldn't be any happier to throw a big first birthday for my twins! My god I would have a blast! After all they do deserve it, but then comes the protector part of me the mom part that sais "no no, it's safer to have a small party with guests that our healthy" and then the joy of wanting to go all out kind of dims, but instead of dimming I decide on throwing a small little misters bash with mustaches galore! And a nice cake and decorations to match! I have to make this party the best for them! They deserve it, celebration on life and accomplishments for two special little boys!

Sidekick to a Superhero

What does every one expect a  micro preemie mom to be? A superhero that smiles and never sheds a tear?  That they are unstoppable, strong willed people? How can they do it all. Especially with twins on oxygen and monitors and doctor appointments galore! How can those parents maintain jobs or their sanity or their mortgage? What emotional toll has wandered into their souls?

  Life for me and my boyfriend has changed!  Being a women, you dream of a picket fence to go with your first house, a white wedding dress to wear when you marry the one you love for 6 years. We all want that don't we? My boyfriend and I bought our first starter home about two years ago and we love our house!  We decided to have a child and we ended up with micro preemie twin boys! And struggles for our new family have become of us, but as we saw our boys fight for life, we grew stronger and a family and couple!  People kind of expect that their opinions are the right answer! 

  I learned to stick up for myself, this quiet shy person is not going to let ignorant people get in my way or control me anymore! I work full time, and come home to two special needs children  that need me more than anything right now! Oh yeah I cry, I cry a lot! My boyfriend has been through so much trauma with the boys being born premature that it's affecting him in the present! I'm suppose to hold up the fort!

  Superhero you may ask? No but maybe a sidekick! My twins are my superheroes! They are the true meaning of  courage and all that fun superhero lingo! I'm just their sidekick helping them prosper!  Am I strong? Maybe in your eyes, but I am just doing the best I can do! How do I maintain a job? Just lucky on that subject, and lastly how can I maintain my financial security? I'm not! Living on paycheck by paycheck at the moment! 

 I found out though, life is what you make of it! You hate your job then change it, only if it was that easy right?  The battles we face make the person that you are and will or have become in this life! You are never alone in this journey even though their may be some dark times!  Someone out their loves  and needs you! You actually may be someone's superhero sidekick!

We are a little late,but happy NEW YEAR!